The Engagement I

Part One.

How did it all begin?

You know, I've always wondered.. How do you break the news to your parents that you're dating someone/ planning to get engaged. Coming from a strict family background; my dad is super strict about me dating boys. If he hates the boy, there's no way he's gonna turn back. My mom on the other hand, has always been easy about it. Meh not really, she pretends that she doesn't know but she knows. Mothers... Pshh.

Last December, me and A had a serious discussion about our future. He told me his plan is to get married before 26, while I told him my plan is to get married before 25. Well, that was my plan when I was in high school. You see, when you're 17.... 25 seems like a long long long way to go. But soon, before you know it.. You are twenty-freaking-five years old!!! Ah back to the story, so around January we had that talk again. This time he was really serious. Initially we plan to get engaged in March....

But.

My parents doesn't know about our "secret" love affair. I had to tell them. Every day A would asked me,

"So.. Dah tanya Mama?"
"Nanti lah, takde perfect timing."
"Hmm k." *merajuk a little. Because he thought I wasn't serious*

From Feb March... Finally I had the guts to tell them. I was scared of rejection to be honest. What if they disapprove him? My heart will break into little tiny pieces. Ish dramatic! I don't know why, but I told my dad first I still remember the exact words I said to him. We were both in the car, mom was out of town. Perfecttt, kan?

"Abah.. Kaklong ingat nak bertunang this May." (Had to change the dates, because well too chicken!)
"Hah? Kaklong dah ada calon ke?"
"Ermmm. Ada la.."
"Siapa?"
"Ada this guy..."
"Mana kenal?"
"Sama sekolah dulu, kenal since sekolah rendah lagi."

Next on is the normal questions. Study mana, kerja mana etc. The usuals I'd say. Last thing he said was..

"I can't tell you who's your Mr. Right. If you think he's the right one for you, understands you. Then I'm okay with it, Kaklong."

Phew! Only God knows. Lega. But next up... Mom.

You see.... I am actually a chicken. A scary cat. I didn't even dare to tell mom right infront of her. So I whatsapp her instead. Can't remember the exact thing she said.. I only remember..

"Mama kena lah jumpa dia dulu. Baru boleh decide. Ni bukan main main."

Umm.
I was so gelojoh you see... I brought him to see my parents the next day! And... Approved!

A week after we had a little merisik session. Not really a merisik, but his mom came to our house to discuss about the engagement etc.

Uh oh.

Things are getting more serious now ay.

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I decided to stay

Ahoy readers..

So I finally decided to unprivate this blog. Might need some time for me to get back to writing. And ummm yes, I did read all of my sad/sappy entries- and yes I decided to keep it. Just as a little reminder for me and for those who can relate; its for you too! :)

This is obviously temporary might not even be legit anymore. I might even change it to this is obviously permanent? Heh high hopes sangat lah kan.

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So....

I am now engaged. Not a surprise. Not something new. Got engaged on the 10th May; yes a day before my birthday. Which is sort of like my birthday gift.


To whom?

My ex boyfriend.
Or can I just say... My first crush masa 10 years old? Nyihihihi.

He gave me this when we were 12. Just look at his hobbies. Laugh now please! Hahah. 

And this is us today; after the ceremony.

More on the engagement on the next entry. 

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There and then

Last week..

Went for an interview in IKEA. I wont call it as an interview because basically what we did what chatted, gossip updated each other- me, Irene and Jason. Sigh I hope I make it through.

Today..

I submitted my resignation letter. I guess I'm not that strong to face it all. I am not made for this. Mean people are mean. Took me a while to make this decision. But this 3 things that happen all in a month.

Ah go die la you people.

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Content

I am in a such happier place right now, I couldn't ask for more. Alhamdulillah.. Finally, everything falls into place. And I hope it stays this way. :)

A has been such a sweetheart. And I hope I won't ruin things.

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Moving too fast

"This weekend Ellisya pergi kursus kahwin. Dia kata nanti dorang nak tukar to one week."

"Ehhh mana boleh! Orang kerja la apa la. Takkan boleh buat punya la."

"Yeke? Betul juga. Tapi kata ada qiamullail semua.."

"Eh, tidur sana ke pulak?"

"Thats what they say la.. Better be safe than sorry."

"Jom?"

"Huh?"

"Jom la pergi kursus kahwin...."

"Umm. Ok. Jom?"

"Nanti search kat mana ok."

"Eh! Dia la search, kawan ramai dah kahwin."

"Ok, boleh."


And now.
I'm speechless.

Here in your arms

Yesterday.
I felt sick in the office. A came to pick me up. Thought he'd come with a car, instead he came with a motorbike. Parked it near Ampang Point, and drove my car home. Had a quick lunch at McD. I'm not gonna lie, but I felt good instantly. What is this la? Demam tipu tipu? No, I was really sick. Doctor said my temperature was 39c. Which was pretty high.... Anyways, it was sweet of him. Smitten all over again. (Ish!!!)

Later that night, he sent me this..

Erm...

So... I thought its about time he knows this..

Mind the clip, the lyrics...

"I felt inlove, inlove with you suddenly..."

Thought he didn't notice it. But boy, cepat pick up lah this guy. (I think I'm the only one who takes hint slow..) He asked me, 'I felt inlove, inlove with you suddenly?' I didn't reply though. 

Let it be.

Time will tell. 

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Sunshine gone

I'm confused.

I like A, a lot. Like a lot. The thing is.. He just got out from a 7 years relationship. 7 freaking years. Not just lah, they broke up like a year or two. But the situation is a bit like O and me. We didn't have a proper goodbye. Just no strings attached. But him on the other hand, the ex has 'moved on' to another guy.

Until...

She saw his comments on my instagram. She was furious. And he felt guilty.

Why.

Why do you have to rain on my parade?